Every time I turn around I’m pleasing someone, making someone happy, upsetting another one, hurting someone’s feelings, confusing someone, ect...I can’t seem to please everyone. My emotions have been on a roller coaster. I feel like I don’t know where I belong or where I want to be. (not when things comes to Lovie, we are happy)
When I try to do things for myself, that upsets others. I try to stand on my own feet and they get knocked out from under me. At some point in my life I have to be allowed to walk on my own.
I don’t like when I upset anyone, it hurts my heart. I pride myself on being a good person and trying to be good to others, but it seems the more I try the more grief I get. If you are one I have caused pain, upset or confused reading this “I’m sorry”. I treat people the way I would like to be treated. I try to be there for the ones I love, I don’t expect anything in return, it’s just what I do because I care.
Again I’m sorry if I have upset, left out or confused anyone...It was never my intention, things have been really difficult the last two months.